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         Budapest, 1956
         
          
 Tuesday, October 23, 1956There is talk in school today about a demonstration that
         is going on downtown. Being a third grader, I don't really
         understand what is going on. When I arrive home, I see the
         adults in our apartment building huddling around radios
         trying to piece together the conflicting news. They are even
         listening to Radio Free Europe and other forbidden foreign
         stations! I live with my mother and grandparents (grandmother and
         step-grandfather) near the Keleti pájaudvar (East
         Station), on Nefelejts utca, number 18. Click
         here to read more about my life before the
         revolution and visit my former home. My mother
         works by day as a draftsman for an industrial architecture
         office and takes night classes at a technical school. As
         usual, she is at school tonight, and will be home late. My
         grandparents are naturally getting worried, since the local
         radio is reporting some violence near the radio station. She
         finally arrives home and tells us about the bands of
         demonstrators she passed on her way home who bragged
         gleefully about toppling the statue of Josef Stalin which
         stood at the entrance to the Városliget (City Park).
         There is great excitement and apprehension. Wednesday, October 24 - Saturday, November 3, 1956The freedom fighters are on their way to defeating the
         Soviet military and the latter is preparing to leave
         Hungary. This is being well covered in the news media around
         the world. (Please refer to the bibliography.in the
         Reference page) Great euphoria is engulfing the city, with
         lots of political talk which I do not understand. Wherever I
         go, people hover over their radios when they are not talking
         politics. By November 3, it appears that Hungary would
         finally be rid of the Soviet curse. They are negotiating
         their withdrawal with the newly formed provisional
         government. Sunday, November 4 - Friday, November 9, 1956Well, the Soviets decided they were not leaving after
         all. In fact, more tanks and troops are pouring in than were
         present at the height of the German occupation in World War
         II. The Soviets' negotiation of withdrawal turns out to be a
         cruel ruse, typical of their tactics throughout the Cold
         War. Column after column of troops, tanks and heavy
         artillery is entering the city from the east and are
         securing all the vital centers. The largest cannons are
         being erected on Gellérthegy (Gellert Hill - see map
         below) and are now pounding the entire city. The
         shelling is so fierce in our neighborhood that we must leave
         our apartment and hunker down in the bomb shelter beneath
         our building. It is a tense, heartbreaking time, not to mention cold
         and damp as well. Again, everyone is huddled around the one
         short wave radio, listening for any glimmer of hope. There
         is the incessant urging by Radio Free Europe to fight on,
         victory is within grasp. Then there is the repeated,
         desperate appeals to the U.N. for intervention, but none is
         forthcoming. How can a lightly armed scrappy group of
         teenagers and young adults defeat an entire mechanized
         Soviet division? I vividly remember hearing the clatter of tank tracks
         overhead, the exploding shells, the rumble of disintegrating
         brick and mortar. This is punctuated by the frequent rattle
         of machine gun fire with the occasional pop of small arms
         fire. There are even freedom fighters on the roof of our
         building, firing their puny rifles at the Soviet tanks.
         People would venture out during the lulls to bring back
         cigarettes and eyewitness accounts of the damage to the
         city. Saturday, November 10 - Saturday, December 29, 1956When we finally emerge from the bomb shelter and venture
         out for the first time, I could not believe my eyes. The
         streets in our neighborhood are reduced to rubble! Large, 3
         - 4 story brick and stone buildings have their entire
         facades ripped out, exposing their inner walls with pictures
         still hanging, albeit crooked; doors dangling from their
         frames, half open; occasionally, a bit of flooring still
         intact near the walls and corners, sometimes with a chair or
         couch still standing on it. On the ground below lies the
         contents of the blown out rooms in a mountain of mortar and
         dust. I especially recall seeing a grand piano resting on
         its side, just sticking out of the rubble. Huddled around
         this wreckage are the families who once resided there,
         crying, as they watch their worldly possessions in ruins.
         Miraculously, our building is not severely damaged; it just
         sports a few more bullet holes. This building survived two
         world wars and is not quite ready to succumb to a mere
         revolution. The streets are virtually impassable due to the burned
         out carcasses of trucks, busses and trolleys. People are
         gingerly stepping over the electrical cables which are
         strewn about, lest they still be live. We walk to other
         neighborhoods, less damaged than ours, to buy whatever
         scarce supplies are available. During this ordeal, though,
         we never go to bed hungry. In school, there is no talk of the revolution. I'm not
         sure if we are allowed to talk about it or not, but we are
         just too scared to even mention it. The teachers are
         probably scared, too, and I am sure that they are not happy
         with the latest turn of events. Everyone is afraid of the
         Soviets and their despicable henchmen, the Hungarian AVO,
         the secret police. During this period, there is widespread talk of escape. I
         am told, in no uncertain terms, not to mention this to
         anyone. Again, no one is talking about it in school,
         but every day we seem to be missing another classmate or
         two. "They moved to the country, where there is more food"
         we are told. Of course, in our heart of hearts we know the
         truth - they moved out of the country, where there
         is more freedom! While the Soviets are
         consolidating their power in the cities, the borders are
         left loosely patrolled, which is presenting a rare
         opportunity for the dejected Hungarians to escape. My mother and grandparents spend many a late night doing
         some serious talking. I know the topic is escape. My mom's
         best friend is one of the first to go; she escapes in
         mid-November with her husband and baby. Just before
         Christmas a letter arrives from Toronto, Canada -- they had
         made it safely! Would we be next? 
         
          
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